It's a weird feeling. . .

So, Friday morning at 6:30 I found out that my Grandpa passed away. My aunt called at 6:20, I'm not gonna lie, I didn't pick up the phone. I hit ignore and tried to go back to sleep, but when my mom called ten minutes later I figured I should probably answer the phone. My mom told me the bad news and I tried to go back to sleep, that didn't happen. So I caught up on some DVR'd stuff and then went back to sleep.

Now the weird feeling is that I'm not really feeling any sort of grief, sadness, or sorrow. A week ago my mom had told me that he had been in and out of the hospital for about two weeks, so I kinda had already dealt with the issue in my head and heart. I know that he's in a better place now, there's no more pain to deal with for him.

The other weird feeling is that I'm not really sure how to tell my friends that it has happened. It's just a weird thing to deal with, I'm unsure who to tell, how to tell them, or why to tell them. I don't really need anything from them right now, I'm not feeling that bad so I've just let it kinda skip over and I'm ok with that.

So, I guess if your reading this and you are looking for an action point then here it is. PRAY, pray for my family, pray that my grandma can find comfort in God, pray that everyone in the family can deal with this in a healthy way. Just pray for the family.

Slumdog. . .

So, last night I saw slumdog millionaire, let me say first I was not all that interested in seeing this movie even with all the hype that surrounded this movie.

So we are watching the movie and in the first twenty minutes I felt this over whelming sense of grief wash over me. The scene's where they show what really happens in the slum's of the world just made me want to write a song. It made me feel the way a lot of other musician's and artist have felt when they see the pain and wrong that is going on in this world. I wanted to write, more on that later.

So, the rest of the movie I absolutely loved. The way Danny Boyle directed it, to how well the acting was. The entire movie was very, very well done. I would recommend this movie to anyone, I think that everyone who cares about the world and the way it's run should walk out of the movie feeling good about the story. While at the same time you should feel some sense of remorse and grief for the world.

This isn't the way it's supposed to be, this world is not the way it was meant to be, we are not living the way God intended.

So, with this in mind I'm hoping that through some prayer, thinking and a little musical talent I can come up with a song that expresses what I'm feeling after seeing this movie.

A post for friends. . . . . .

So, a few of my friends have been asking me lately why I haven't been posting a lot on here. Well the answer to that is two fold.

The first reason is I've not had a lot that I want to talk about. I don't want to use this blog as a nag site where my friends would just read complaints about my life. So there is one reason. . . .

The other reason is because the things I really want to talk about could hurt some relationships that I have and I'm not really sure where or with who I can talk to about my idea's and feeling's about life, love, and how I think about Church.

So, there is the reason I've not been blogging a lot lately. Hopefully over the next couple of weeks or days I will come up with some more things to write about.

If any of you are wondering about the "changes" post. . . . a lot of things are still in the works but I can tell you that I've been writing some music with a buddy and it's coming really well. We've practiced with a full band and were all loving the way it's coming. So that's a new, good, and cool thing that's coming down the pike.

That's all for now. . . .

Changes. . . .

I'm hoping there are some changes in store for Steve coming in the next couple of months. We'll see what God has in store for me, I'm hoping it the next great adventure for me.

Pre Birthday Post

Ok, so I have a birthday coming up. I also have a list of stuff that would be nice to have for my room/apartment/basement loft/living space. So, if you feel so inclined to purchase me something for my birthday here is the list in no specific order-

A bakers rack.
Some cool way to store a lot of clothes, my dresser isn't big enough.
Some sort of book shelves, I have two but not everything fits on them, DVD's, CD's, Books.
Some sort of drapes? for my two windows.
Nice poster frames for my original Star Wars posters.
A flat screen TV to hang on the post.
Some sort of artwork for the bathroom.
Picture frames with pictures already in them, like pictures of me with friends. I have one so far.
A cool coffee table, I might have a line on one of those.
A crock pot.

I'm not trying to be greedy or anything, but I figure that this is better than a bunch of money.

Today history was made

So, as I sat at work and we all watched the ceremony happen from a CNN stream in the back I was thinking to myself that I was witnessing history in the making. No one in my family had ever seen this happening before me. Not my father, my grandpa's, or my mom. At one point while still at home I was actually choking up a little from the overflow of emotions. It was a turning point in the history of our young nation, was as one commentator put it. And that should be moving to anyone who calls themself an american, no matter which way you voted.

And it was, the prayer from Rick Warren was eloquent and thought out, the little bit of the speech I heard from the Prez was very well put and seemed to not have changed much from his campaign speeches. I was very proud to be an American today, proud to worship in a country that was founded on the principles of let a man worship as he wants to. It was nice to watch with co-workers who had voted the other way than me, it was nice to watch them cheer, and some even seemed to have a little more zip in their step today.

I love the fact that I live in a country where the change of power is a peaceful one. And I am glad that there was no major incident today, at least that I heard of, that would make me think otherwise. It was a nice day to call yourself an american no matter which way you voted.

I did find this rather amusing though when I got home. . . . . . . because I though it was going to do the opposite.

World Away

So I saw this and decided to try it out. . . .

1. Put Your iTunes on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Tag 10 friends.
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because fun pointlessness spreads like a virus.

My answers:

if someone says, “Is this okay?” you say:
"Heysátan" Sigur Rios

How would you describe yourself?
"We are what you say", Sufjan Stevens

What do you like in a guy/girl?
"Soundtrack for our movie", Mae

How do you feel today?
"This Boy", James Morrison

What is your life’s purpose?
"Everlong", Foo Fighters

What is your motto?
"Colors", Amos Lee

What do your friends think of you?
"Ridin' the Storm Out", REO Speedwagon

What do you think of your parents?
"It's a hit", Rilo Kiley

What do you think about very often?
"Summertime", Mae

What do you think of your best friend?
"Peaches", Presidents of the USA

What do you think of the person you like?
"Looking Back on Today", The Ataris

What is your Life Story?
"Holdin Down the Fort", Chris Thile

What do you want to be when you grow up?
"Teenage Dirtbag", Wheatus

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
"1x7", Project 86

What will you dance to at your wedding?
"Living in the End", OAR

What will they play at your funeral?
"When the morning turns to night", Lenny Kravitz

What is your biggest fear?
"Mad as Rabbits", Panic at the Disco

What is your biggest secret?
"Amy's Song", Switchfoot

What do you think of your friends?
"Funky Dudley", Dudley Perkins

What will you post this as?
"World Away", Emery


There it is, pretty eclectic if you ask me. . . . . . .