Sunday, March 29, 2009

Ralph W. Goodwin

Goodwin, Ralph W. Friday, March 27, 2009. Beloved husband of Nelda (nee Stevenson) Goodwin; dear son of Epsia Goodwin; dear brother of Geraldine Brown and Phyllis Clinkenbeard; beloved step-father of Linda Schwarz; Grandpa Ralph, brother-in-law, uncle and good friend. Services: Funeral at HUTCHENS Mortuary, Florissant, Mon., March 30, at 10 a.m. Interment Memorial Park Cemetery. Memorials appreciated to First Baptist Church of Ferguson TV Ministry. Visitation 1-5 p.m. Sunday.


Saturday, March 28, 2009

It's a weird feeling. . .

So, Friday morning at 6:30 I found out that my Grandpa passed away. My aunt called at 6:20, I'm not gonna lie, I didn't pick up the phone. I hit ignore and tried to go back to sleep, but when my mom called ten minutes later I figured I should probably answer the phone. My mom told me the bad news and I tried to go back to sleep, that didn't happen. So I caught up on some DVR'd stuff and then went back to sleep.

Now the weird feeling is that I'm not really feeling any sort of grief, sadness, or sorrow. A week ago my mom had told me that he had been in and out of the hospital for about two weeks, so I kinda had already dealt with the issue in my head and heart. I know that he's in a better place now, there's no more pain to deal with for him.

The other weird feeling is that I'm not really sure how to tell my friends that it has happened. It's just a weird thing to deal with, I'm unsure who to tell, how to tell them, or why to tell them. I don't really need anything from them right now, I'm not feeling that bad so I've just let it kinda skip over and I'm ok with that.

So, I guess if your reading this and you are looking for an action point then here it is. PRAY, pray for my family, pray that my grandma can find comfort in God, pray that everyone in the family can deal with this in a healthy way. Just pray for the family.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Slumdog. . .

So, last night I saw slumdog millionaire, let me say first I was not all that interested in seeing this movie even with all the hype that surrounded this movie.

So we are watching the movie and in the first twenty minutes I felt this over whelming sense of grief wash over me. The scene's where they show what really happens in the slum's of the world just made me want to write a song. It made me feel the way a lot of other musician's and artist have felt when they see the pain and wrong that is going on in this world. I wanted to write, more on that later.

So, the rest of the movie I absolutely loved. The way Danny Boyle directed it, to how well the acting was. The entire movie was very, very well done. I would recommend this movie to anyone, I think that everyone who cares about the world and the way it's run should walk out of the movie feeling good about the story. While at the same time you should feel some sense of remorse and grief for the world.

This isn't the way it's supposed to be, this world is not the way it was meant to be, we are not living the way God intended.

So, with this in mind I'm hoping that through some prayer, thinking and a little musical talent I can come up with a song that expresses what I'm feeling after seeing this movie.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

A post for friends. . . . . .

So, a few of my friends have been asking me lately why I haven't been posting a lot on here. Well the answer to that is two fold.

The first reason is I've not had a lot that I want to talk about. I don't want to use this blog as a nag site where my friends would just read complaints about my life. So there is one reason. . . .

The other reason is because the things I really want to talk about could hurt some relationships that I have and I'm not really sure where or with who I can talk to about my idea's and feeling's about life, love, and how I think about Church.

So, there is the reason I've not been blogging a lot lately. Hopefully over the next couple of weeks or days I will come up with some more things to write about.

If any of you are wondering about the "changes" post. . . . a lot of things are still in the works but I can tell you that I've been writing some music with a buddy and it's coming really well. We've practiced with a full band and were all loving the way it's coming. So that's a new, good, and cool thing that's coming down the pike.

That's all for now. . . .

Monday, March 2, 2009

Changes. . . .

I'm hoping there are some changes in store for Steve coming in the next couple of months. We'll see what God has in store for me, I'm hoping it the next great adventure for me.